It was right around the beginning of March that I finally decided to take a pregnancy test...honestly, being pregnant was the furthest thing from my mind when my period was late, i really just thought it was still getting back to normal since having Kaleb. It was my sister Donna, who convinced me to go buy a test, so i bought some cheap off brand one at Fry's. The line was definitely there, but it was SUPER faded, so i convinced myself it was probably a bad test, but I told jared about it either way.I was a little nervous about what his reaction would be, but to my surprise he had a big grin on his face and his first word was 'cool'. We were on our way home from Macayos when I gave him the news and he decided to stop at walgreens so i could get another test to be sure.....I bought 6 tests total, and i took 4 of them....by the fourth one, which was a big, fat, digital response that read PREGNANT, i figured it must be true and didn't take anymore.
I think I was truly in denial for the first few weeks, and if it wasn't for Jared I don't know when I would have finally scheduled an appointment. Lo and behold we made it to that first nerve racking ultrasound and there it was...my little blob staring right back at me! I think it was then that I had my first really excited moment, and immediately I had HUGE feelings of guilt for being negative about changing two sets of diapers, and having to deal with a new baby, while my first baby was still a baby!
Announcing this pregnancy has been...interesting. Most people are shocked just because how close the kiddos will be...just under 17 months if you were wondering :) Although I have had tons of positive feedback from people, I am surprise at the amount of negativity some people have decided to give. Some have actually laughed when i told them, seriously laughed...i don't see the humor, or do i understand the question "wow, crazy, what were you guys on when you decided that?" Well Birth Control actually, but really, does it matter if we had planned it or not, shouldn't you just be happy for us that we are having another child? I have come to the conclusion that people that give me comments like those are either
1.) Too stupid to realize what they are saying is offensive, or
2.) Too rude to care
needless to say, I rarely mention anymore that this little one was unplanned, because I could not be more excited to have this baby! I also realized that most of my concerns about having a second child would still concern me even if they were much farther apart. I think it is so amazing knowing that this special little spirit is so exited to come down here and hang out with us! I am still nervous about handling my kids and still getting use to the phrase "my kids", but i wouldn't have it any other way!
Since then we found out we are having a sweet little girl, although Jared didn't believe the ultrasound tech and it took two more visits for him to finally agree that things will be a lot more pink around here :) We will have to make some adjustments around here for her arrival, but I am so blessed to have such an amazing, supportive husband and a perfect little boy to keep my stress levels down! This little girl has a alot love coming her way and we can't wait to meet her!
